Meet Your Guide

Hi there, my name is Alelie (Ah-Le-Lee). I am so excited and deeply honored to guide this group to reconnect back to yourself. I have leaned on substances to help numb myself from feeling deep seated pain and emotions. Being disconnected from my body was what led to relying on a substance to '“have fun, be social, relax and unwind.” Alcohol was my first crutch. Starting at a young age it was used heavily to party and forget my problems and insecurities. Smoking marijuana easily came into the picture and was also used to “calm” the storm inside me.

The truth is that using these substances was not helping me at all. I was already disconnected from myself and using these substances was only hurting me. I was not making good decisions while drinking, my hangovers were horrid, and I felt so uncomfortable in my body. Smoking was taking me out of my body, which came in handy with the discomfort I was already feeling from the disconnect and from literally poisoning myself with alcohol. The main side effect both of these substances had on me was very little, to no, personal growth.

I started to connect the dots when the hangovers and discomfort in my body became unbearable. I was able to slowly step away from alcohol, but once I learned how terrible it really is for you, I was stunned! Learning about the damage on hormones, DNA and how it is a leading cause for 7 different types of cancers made it incredibly easy to bring my use to a full stop. This made me consider marijuana “safer” and continued using it daily. But I was only using it daily because I still wasn’t truly comfortable and connected to my body.

I quit alcohol completely at the end of 2022. Around that time, I was learning Craniosacral Therapy to incorporate into my facial treatments and something quite profound was happening. I was feeling energetic shifts while working on my clients and my clients were also experiencing gentle healing. This led to seeking out reiki certifications and somatic, emotional release trainings to learn more about my body and tie all the modalities together to create a beautiful and impactful journey for my clients. While doing inevitable work on myself during all these trainings, I realized it didn’t help me in any way to smoke every day. It was actually stunting my growth and giving me the false narrative that “I am ok.” If I was ok, then why was I relying on a substance like that every single day? I wasn’t ok. I was hurting. I was hurting from my childhood and my past choices and old versions of myself that didn’t know what boundaries or safety or true love for myself were. I was hurting from transgenerational trauma; being a daughter of an immigrant and knowing my parents had their own traumas that reflected through their patterns and parenting and also knowing that continued with their parents and so on and so forth.

I now don’t depend on these substances to take me out of my body, to numb me or make me forget. I have tools and knowledge to ground me and fulfill me so I can rest in knowing I am ok. I am safe. I am loved. And I love my body enough to listen to it. I truly did not feel good using these substances every day. If you are or have been feeling like you would like to explore what that feels like, I can’t wait to help you connect back to yourself.

With love and gratitude,

Alelie